High Voltage Testimonies
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Testimonies
Through the Pain
Everything fully started when I was 9 when we found out that my brother had cancer. My whole world went downhill when he died after surgery. My dad went through othis huge change and withdrew himself from everybody. We quit going to church when my brother died because it wasn’t the same. I never wanted to go back to church again. I hated God and was so mad at him for taking my brother from me but I tried to hide my emotions because I thought I deserved all the pain and the losing people close to me. When I was 10 someone else close to me died and that was my live in nanny. I was in her room when she had a heart attack right in frontf me. My life just kept going downhill. I stayed away from everybody and got made fun of so much that I came home crying everyday from school. When I got to middle school I had my first boyfriend and in 8th grade he pushed me into a wall and tried to force me to kiss him and stuff. I got close to another guy and he treated me with respect and everything but that changed when we went to different high schools. I went even more downhill in high school. I had started cutting and everything and I had been listening to my parents fight all the time. My dad would get so mad that he would leave and go to our old house and stay there and then come home and just not talk to anybody. After a while I would just blare my music and try to escape the world. Well actually I think I was 13 when I started cutting but I don’t know. In between the times I was cutting and everything I had so many thoughts of suicide and I wrote so many letters and poems and journal entries that I still have and in those letters I would call myself this worthless piece of crap and I kept telling myself that I deserved to die and everything. I kept going farther and farther down hill and it felt like nothing could stop me. I had been wanting to get drunk with some of my friends and we almost did start drinking but her parents came home which i was glad for so we just invited these guys over and there was smoking and stuff but I didn’t smoke because she ran out and we didn’t want to go to the store or anything which i was also glad for. I also had an encounter with the police due to my dads anger problems and that made things even harder on me. I dropped out of high school and tried to do home schooling and that just made things even worse when that happened. The reason that I had an encounter with the police is because my dad went crazy and he would call me all these cuss words and he used to abuse me and stuff and then my friend told the police but they didn’t want to do anything and then my dad had me put in a detention home because he thought I was so messed up and was the problem. Apprantly all the family problems were all my fault and I was the one who had to pay for them. I don’t let people close to me unless I have a feeling. A really strong feeling that I can trust you and that you wont hurt me. I don’t want to go through anymore pain then I already have and I am sick of losing the people that I love. I am weak and broken and nobody understands how I feel and I want to be close to someone. I want to curl up in somebody’s arms and be held and I want to have someone wipe away my tears. I still have the urges to cut and I know that it’s not easy. I started talking to Adam from High Voltage a couple weeks ago and I just recently accepted God, with Adam's help, and i know he is going to save me and never leave. I know he has a future planned for me to help people who have gone through everything and more then i have. God wants me to dance in a white dress and live my life for him and i'm going to try to.
High Voltage has helped me find God and I believe they are going to do many more amazing things!
-Kayla, 17, FL
